OK i'm getting tired but i'm just in a blogging mood and I realized I don't think i've even told you about the orphange?! So it's called Home of God's Love and here is the picture from the home page:)




And if you want to visit the website here is the link, http://thehomeofgodslove.org/

The details of what i'll be doing is taking care of 20 babies :) Here is a picture of some of the babies that I took off my friend Allisyns facebook page, she is there right now.



So there will be lots of diapers and feedings and holding and everything baby related :) There are also children through the age of highschool there but obviously since I can't speak the language it would be hard to work with them, so i'll get to see them some but i will be working only with the babies, which I'm really looking forward to. Before this summer when I started "nannying" for a sweet family with a 5 or 6 month old I knew pretty much nothing about taking care of babies. Here is her picture...





But i learned a lot working for them, so i think it's kind of neat that I can actually feel slightly prepared now. Now 1 verses 20 will definitely make it a lot different and more challenging but i'm at least not clueless about changing diapers and feeding and what is appropriate baby activity and what to work on with them and what they enjoy and all that kind of stuff. Plus now I absolutely love just being with babies and holding babies and talking to and loving on babies, whereas before I didn't care as much as I do now. And i think this case in particular is going to be really exciting knowing that I will be taking care of a baby who may not have had anybody to take care of it, and now they will be adopted and given to a loving parent and i can say i helped care for your baby which sounds so rewarding and gets me excited just thinking about it. So anyways i think it's really neat how God worked that out, i learned how to take of a baby and then a couple months later I get this oppurtunity to go take care of lots of babies. My friend asked me the other day, is this something you really want to do, do you really have a passion for this in paticular(meaning place and people)? And i told her that while deciding whether it was what i wanted to do and what God wanted me to do, I realized no. This hasn't always been my passion and what I wanted to do. I used to never want to do mission work, then over the past couple years my heart has changed regaurding that when I had the oppurtunities to do some short term mission work and then the over the past few months before this oppurtunity came up i was tlkaing with another friend saying i want to do a long term mission trip but i don't know exactly what or where, so i strted looking. I couldn't find anything that really jumped out at me, things got busy and I quit looking and decided i would wait on that pursuit. So then in December this oppurtunity came up, it wasn't what I expected or what i would have chosen before but the more i thought about it and prayed about it the more excited i became about it, and things started to work out so it's like God kind of started placing a passion for it in my heart. So it wasn't originally but it has become something i really really want to do, it is becoming a strong passion and i do feel like it's what God wants me to do.

It has been really hard having to strat thinking about actually leaving everyone. I'm starting to realize all i'm gonna miss like, baseball season which sounds dumb but i love it, and my brother is really good and loves it so it's fun to be able to go with the fam and support him, allison told me nakiya's birthday is a week after i leave, deandre's birthday is 3 days after i leave... all these little things are starting to come up and that makes the leaving and missing part feel real. That doesn't even touch all the people i'm leaving and the things that will be happening while i'm gone so it really does make me sad, i hate to leave that i wish i could be apart of both like here and there at the same time. But since that's obviously not possible and I know this is what i should do and it's what I want to do, i'll just have to trst God to help me deal with the feelings...and you can help by staying in contact with meand updating me!! lol send me pictures even leave me voice messages or comments to listen to and read about what you've been up to. But enough about the sad stuff, I can't focus on that, focus on the good and positive and all i'm looking forward to!

So i should really be writing an essay rather than writing this blog. I'm in the process of college applications which i have to finish by the time i leave on March 8th, and i haven't begun any essays, bad me i know. Oh have i told you the exact dates yet? Ok well i'll leave with my dad March 8th and spend a week doing tourist stuff with him. Then i'll head to the orphanage on the 16th. Then I'll be leaving to come home on May 26th which means i'll be back in the states May 27th my time but May 26th...still your time. haha funny huh? But i'll be landing in LA so i'll actually be back in Midland on the 27th. Another thing that i'm excited about is the flight to Taiwain goes from Dallas to LA, then to South Korea and we have a couple hour layover so i want to try to leave the airport then come back in so we have to go through customs and I can get another stamp on my passport :) hehe so that'll be fun to also kind of get to "go to" south korea :) ...eww gross my dog smells bad, well i'm getting really tired now and my brain is shutting down so i'll update again later!